Click here to skip straight into my writing journal, or scroll on to read of an obstacle I overcame.

Rather than a highlight reel of my last 26 years, here's a recent struggle I had in figuring out who I want to be.

I began learning to write four years ago.

But, I went through the imposter syndrome phase.

Who am I to start writing?

Don't you need to have published your first novel at 10?

I can just about speak, let alone write.

That last point was especially true.

Being born tongue-tied, leaving me unable to speak in sentences until I was eight didn't help my confidence with language.

The trash-talker in my head kept pummelling me into submission.

Eventually, I realised that silencing the self-doubt, while avoiding the self-sabotage was like living in a house alive with landmines.

You might lose a leg on the way to the bathroom.

I'm not worried about losing a leg anymore, as I don't need them to write.

That's a little crazy you may say, but show me a writer who isn't a little crazy.

You can see a complete list of what I'm working on below, but mainly I'm learning how to write well.

After reading this quote:

"The truth is, if what we choose to do with our lives won't make a story meaningful, it won't make a life meaningful either." - Donald Miller

And realising I was living the definition of the sunk cost fallacy, I decided to stick my middle finger up to the trash-talker and begin publicly sharing my journey.

You can follow along with my writing journey here, or over on Twitter.

I'm sharing everything that I'm reading and watching, my notes, writing exercises, and various drafts of articles to show my editing process.

Everything I write begins its life cycle as garbage, this is true, I think, for most creatives. Few pull back the curtain on their craft. I never did when producing music. I think this was because of ego. I have no writing ego. I'm like a newborn who needs teaching how to use a spoon; some laugh and others help.

If you’d like to help, please get in touch.

Perhaps sharing my struggles will help you overcome yours. We’re all human after all. Over 3000 years ago, the Ancient Greek philosophers gave us everything we need to deal with the travesties of life. Their advice is as relevant today as it was then. Our difficulties are rarely novel. If there are any lessons to be learned from history, it’s that cooperation does more good for human life than isolation. Violence never creates lasting peace, and many of the things we think we know will be proven wrong, or at least, misguided.

“Humans are imperfect creatures. You don’t “succeed” because you have no weaknesses; you succeed because you find your unique strengths and focus on developing habits around them. Everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Everyone struggles. Take solace in that.” - Tim Ferriss

Here is a list of the things currently occupying my time:

Follow my journey on Twitter.

Last update: 4 Feb 2021. Page inspired by Derek Sivers.

About me, before commencing this writing journey.

I'm 26 years old as I write this (12 Feb 2020). I had a singular focus until a few weeks ago, one from which constructed my identity.

For the last 13 years of my life, since I was 13, I've studied a single skill—music production. I got pretty good at it too. I had some early success; Ben Verse heard one of my songs and played it at his next Pendulum show. I had a few releases on independent record labels. Four years ago, I started a YouTube channel that's racked up 1.4 million views (thanks, Mom). That led me to build a sample library company seen in Shopify, Dropbox, and Gary Vaynerchuk's Vlogs. Not too long ago I found out the samples have been used by Grammy-award winning producers of Demi Lovato, Eminem, Madonna and more.

It's been a fun ride, it's taught me almost everything I know, but it's not the thing I want to do forever. While I'm not quite old enough to call this my mid-life crises, I do think that we each have chapters in our lives. Many stay in a single chapter too long, like a bad TV show that just won't end. Others sprint for the finish, only to ruin the ending, like season 8 of Game of Thrones.

To turning the page,

Matthew Vere.

“In the end, winning is sleeping better.” —Jodie Foster

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